I Want To Go Home

I finally began to feel like I could leave the hospital. My answer to everything was I feel pretty good, can I go home? Then the vomiting and headaches would sabotage my plan to go home. Finally one day I heard those  "WORDS". We're going to let you go home. I got so excited my head almost exploded. The nurse had to push meds in my IV, I was so crushed, but I did get to go home later that evening. My dear friend Lionel picked me up in his Limousine, and as usual he was handsomely dressed and had on his signature bow tie. I'm grateful.

I'm home now and Lionel made sure I had food to eat, and that my house was warm. Then he had to get back to work, I called my family and let them all know that I'm home.  Fear is running through my mind, they have sent me home with all kinds of medications and strict instructions. The one thing that I am most afraid of is that I have to take 02 Nimotop capsules every four hours. I am afraid that I won't hear the alarm to wake me up in the night hours to take them. That is the most serious of all the meds I have to take. Taking a bath that night was a major task, because I was still very weak.  Rhonda offered for me to go home with her the first night, but I knew that if I didn't go home and be by myself, I would never be able to be left alone at all. Took my meds and climbed into bed, scared to go to sleep, what if I have another bleed in my head, and no one is here. My head started hurting, so I took a pain pill, then freaked out because the pain pill might not let me hear the alarm in four hours, I did pretty good. My next few days were just resting and taking care of myself. Everyone has been calling to check on me, that always made me smile. To be continued...

God Is Awesome, Powerful, And Loving

Before

After

Subarachnoid Hemorrhage

                                                                     God Is Able!

"Will I Make It Out Of This Hospital Alive"

Headaches, strong drugs  seems to be the norm. I feel like I can't wake up! I hear people talking to me but I can't wake up! Ummm hello my head is killing me, is this it? I'm going to die like this, no please God I need to see my family, give sweet kisses to the babies. I hear the nurse say I can tell she's in pain, look at the monitors. Here comes more drugs, but I'm scared I won't wake up. I can't tell her not to give me anymore drugs. She is the sweetest nurse ever, from day one even if I was not conscious she always talked to me as if I was. The sun was shining on my way to work today she'd say, or with that scarf tied around your head you look like you're ready to ride a motor cycle. I laughed so hard but she can't tell that I'm laughing, because I'm sleep.

Thank you Lord! I finally woke up! The above picture of me is what came to mind. This was taken in Costa Rica, I had been cleansed and delivered from all that was not good within me. I WAS PRAISING GOD IN THE PACIFIC OCEAN!!!

Even though I was feeling  bad,  God woke me up. The doctor's come in and say some things regarding my health. including that my head is Filled with blood, (The Subarachnoid Cavity) and they are still watching me to see how things go. I said to him that Jesus is a better doctor than you! I will be fine as they were leaving.. Still in denial that my head was filled with blood, I needed proof, so one of the Physician Assistants brought a portable unit to my bedside, and showed me live footage of the inside of my head. Wow no way, this can't be true. OK God, please heal me....To be continued...